In this quick, low-tech vacation episode, I reflect on what happened when a simple run along the Mississippi River turned into an unexpected reminder of work, identity, and the challenge of truly stepping away.
Inspired by the movie Somewhere in Time, I compare that moment when Christopher Reeve’s character is snapped back to reality by a modern penny to my own vacation-breaking moment: seeing an idle ambulance in a parking lot.
For many of us in fire and EMS, the job is more than a paycheck. It becomes part of who we are. But when the calling becomes too much of our identity, rest can feel suspicious, vacation can feel undeserved, and being off duty can feel strangely uncomfortable.
This episode is a short reflection on work-life balance, unused PTO, first responder identity, and the need to remember that the job may be part of us, but it cannot be all of us.
Take the vacation. Turn off the notifications. Respect the ambulance. But don’t forget to look at the river.
In this episode
Why stepping away from EMS can feel harder than it should
The connection between identity, calling, and burnout
How first responders can struggle with rest and vacation
Why unused PTO may be a warning sign, not a badge of honor
Learning to carry the calling without being carried away by it
Key takeaway
Aging well in emergency services means learning the difference between commitment and captivity.
As always, Fight Wisely, Age Bravely.












